Who's who?

[gwen]

Hi, I'm Gwen and my daughter Miranda was born on 7 July after a normal pregnancy. She died later the same day as a result of a complex heart defect. In August I was diagnosed with cervical cancer and underwent a radical trachelectomy to remove virtually all of the cervix. In theory I might still be able to have another child, but have an incompetent cervix with a permanent stitch, and I'm 35 years old now, so things don't look good.

[lily-valentines mummy]

im jo........im mummy to lily-valentine who was born sleeping in oct 06
she is my only child and my only love xxxx

[Hayley~NathansMummy]

hello, i'm Hayley, mummy to my beautiful boy Nathan who was born on 7th March 2008 at 23.49 after only bein in labour since 10pm measurin 27.5cm and weighin 1lb 3oz, a big boy they said x we were told at the 20 week scan when i was 20+6 there was a probable heart problem and as it was late on a friday afternoon we had to go back on the monday for another scan with consultant this time to have it confirmed, he confirmed nathan had a missin left heart chamber but that was all he could see, he sent us to queen mothers in glasgow the next day where we had more scans with the fetal medicine unit, he then said it was more than just a missin left chamber but he wanted to send us next door to yorkhill for more scans with the top baby doctors, we had them that day, so after 3 hours worth of scans that day we were told nathan had HLHS, syndrome as it can be different things, he had a missin left chamber, the other left chamber was only just visible so it was far too small, he only had half an aorta n basically everythin was messed up, they painted a very very bleak outcome, we decided that day to do the best thing for our son n let him go fly with the angels before he only knew pain n sufferin in what would be a very short life anyway, he wasnt expected to make term or delivery if he did, we didnt have long to make our decision as was told if i got to 22 weeks i would have to have the injection through me into him to stop his heart and that for me was just a no no, i took the tablets the next day, and 2 days later was in bein induced.
we said goodbye to nathan 20 hours after he was born, and had our final goodbye date on the 13th march, dh carried our son in his blue casket x
a few weeks later we had appointment with consultant and i asked him on a scale of 1 to 10 how bad was the state of nathans heart and he said really late 9 more a 10 so we knew we made the right decision for our beautiful boy xx

we decided to try again and after 4 cycles of ttc it happened we got pg with our rainbow baby in october, we nicknamed her rainbow, i knew in my heart she was a girl just like i knew nathan was a boy and i knew before i was even pg with him we would have a boy, same with rainbow,
sadly we lost rainbow to mmc, devastated is an understatementcolor, i had d+c on the 25th November, they only told me she was dated at between 5 + 6 weeks, just before Xmas we found out we lost her due to molar pg, so now im on the follow up programme to monitor the cells to make sure they dont regrow so im not allowed to get pg for at least 6 months so hope it doesnt turn out longer, just want a baby we can keep and bring home.

its so hard bein an angel mummy i miss my babies every second of every day]

[Seths Mommy]

Hi I'm Michelle and I'm a Mom of 4 my living children are 10,7 and 2 my Angel Seth came into this world asleep at 16 weeks5 days for unknown reasons. I've also had 3 other miscarriages 2 I found out at 8 weeks that there was no baby just an empty sac. the other one was a very early miscarriage just 6 weeks after a previous MC. I love and miss all my babies but it wasn't till I lost Seth that I even thought of all the others that have been lost.

[Seths Mommy]

Sorry I forgot to add that Seth was born Oct. 18/08

[Lori]

Hi I'm Lori,

I'm 35 and just lost baby Abigail at full term.  She was 8 pounds and 51 cm and no reason can be found. 

Abigail was our little miracle.  Against all odds, she was conceived through ICSI on our first attempt and after 15 years of marriage.  The likelihood of getting pregnant again is relatively non existent due to the fact I only had one egg when trying for Abigail.

After the perfect pregnancy, my contractions started around midnight on 24/25th Feb 2009.  We could hear her heatbeat on the home monitor then, so it was a complete shock when we got to the hospital and at 3 am the midwife told us that she had gone.   

Currently, I feel lost and in dispair as my husband is recovering from a bad car accident, his mother is going through chemo and I am going through the guilt of thinking what did I do:- was it something I ate; did I lift something too heavy; was it the pain I had the day before which I didn't act on as it only lasted a couple of seconds; was it the row I had with my hubby the week before; did I over do it; did I not do enough exercise...???   Abigail was my responsibility but I took it for granted that she would be here with us now.  I also feel guilty that I didn't talk to her when she was my bump because I saw the pregnancy as just a process to get my baby. I didn't know how much I wanted to be a mummy and how much I would love her until I was told I had lost her. 

Lori

[Bretts mummy Emma]

Awwww I'm so sorry that your precious Abigail is no longer with you xxxxxx we are here for you when you feel ready to tell us more about yourself and your angel xxxxxxx

[kate xx]

hi im kate. mummy to my little angel lacey brenna who grew her wings on the 13th oct 2008, 2 days before her due date. im also mum to bailey 9 years and maisie who is 6.
Lacey was 3lb12oz, their was a hole in her umbilical cord.

[trissie]

hello OFB I am trissie i gave birth to ella on 18 july 2008 i also have two peedy lases megan is 5 and  charley is 3  an two step kids aswell gemma 17 and joshua who is 16 i live on westray in orkney and i am married to a loving husband that iv been with sine i was 18 he is my life i wouldnt have got through the last 9 months with out him
all my love you you all 

[tasha]

Hi in tasha mummy to ellie who passed away 24march 2008. Also to marcus jack who passed away 9thmay 2009. Both of my angels were unable to survive as they suffered from lethal skeletal dysplasia. I love you both so much and miss you dearly! The pain is unbearable! Sleeping with the angels. Xxxxxx

[pigz]

Hello.  I'm Bronny.  My first daughter, Josephine Lee, was stillborn on December 7th, 2005.  I was 36 weeks and 4 days pregnant.  She had various problems when I was pregnant and I was being 'closely monitored' to the point where I was sent to a larger hospital 12 hours from my home to have ultrasounds twice a week.  I was there 6 weeks when they said she was fine and I could go home for a 2 week holiday with my family before going back to be induced.  2 days before I was to fly back to the larger hospital, I went into early labour.  (I didn't panic as I was told she would be a prem)  when we got to the hospital, there was no heart beat so I was induced.  She was born at 10.45 the next night.  They put her death down to the cord blood pressure being too high.  The larger hospital had been monitoring me for exactly that.  So needless to say, head rolled and there was a huge investigation within the hospital system.  I never found out the result of the investigation, I wasn't even supposed to know there was one going on except one of the doctors slipped up and told me.  (The same dr who came in crying to tell me the baby had died.  I felt so bad for her)

I've since gone on to have another daughter, Hermione May, who is 14 months younger then her big sister.

[Eoghansmummy]

Hi there,
                     Well Im Amy, very proud angel mummy to Eoghan born sleeping feb 27th 09 at 20 weeks, He was a much loved and wanted little boy an my heart breaks everytime i wake up an he's not with me. Im finding it very difficult to cope and just thought it may be nice to chat with other parents of angels.