Hormones or normal following a loss?

[Teresa ~ Keaton's Mommy]

I know that all parents have fears. Fears that something will happen to our babies, but for us those fears are real. Having lost a healthy baby boy the fact that Kendra is here, was born at full term, a healthy weight and is doing great offers me little comfort. I find myself watching her and at times my heart misses a beat as I think she has stopped breathing or days like yesterday send me into a blind panic. I watch her sometimes and as her little mouth falls open when she sleeps she looks so like Keaton did after he passed away my heart near breaks and I find myself sobbing. I cry because I love her so much and don't think my heart could stand to loose her too. I know that I can not stop myself being hurt that could only be possible if I did not love her and I so do with all my heart. I never imagined the love could feel this strong again. I annoy myself sometimes as I have to touch her just to see that she is moving which is crazy as Keaton did not die in his sleep. I think thay rationale thoughts and actions no longer have a place in my life.

No real point to this just needed to talk.

Thanks for reading

Teresa xxxx 

[olivias mummy]

 

I know i have no living children yet but i do understand as i imagine if i had a totally healthy term baby i would still expect to lose them and i dont know how i would ever sleep which is like you say totally ridiculas as i didnt lose livvy that way but i think it boils down to our fears of something we does happen and we know first hand that these terrible things dont just happen to other people which is the niave view i think we usually have on horrendous situations.

I hope in time this will pass but i suspect you will always have that fear of Kendra been taken away.

Enjoy Kendra though hun and do your best not to let these fears ruin this very precious time.

love cheryl xx 

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

 

I think its perfectly normal hun, If not then im abnormal too.

Im really struggling to believe that amy-may is her to stay, I battle with my imagination and fears all day.

I know that I love her with all of my being but i still feel just a little detached because I have such a strong feeling that something is going to happen to her.

However I know this isnt fair on her and im doing my best to push it way way way out of my mind and just enjoy my little lady

You know where I am if you need to chat,

Take care of yourself

 

[dn85]

  just wanted to send hugs
Donna
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[ginger dee]

I do the same with my daughters its normal have you a aponea alarm as we lost Jayden like we did Amelias on the conni care and we had a portible aponea alarm this helped so much to reasure me she was ok so i didnt have to keep checking every 5 mins you can also buy them from booths. xxxx

[mummy of twin angels]

  Hi honey...

I do exactly the same with my little one - i understand what ur feeling :-)
When Sophie sleeps her mouth opens and she looks just like my little Harvey does in most of his pictures - it is scary everyday i do worry something will happen to her but i'm just trying to enjoy my time with her and put it to the back of my mind!

Luckily she is quite a heavy breather in her sleep so i can hear her breathing when i lay next to her which makes things a little easier - but also, not sure if itwl help as i havent used it yet, but tommy tippee do a baby monitor with a mat which u place under the matress which alarms if it doesnt detect breathing! its fantastic really - i am going to use it when i finally leave her alone to sleep - at the mo i am never away from her! 

xxxx