Another scare with Kendra

Hi Everyone

I have not been around much as PC was not working and even now it is I struggle to find time to log on as we are trying to get settled into some sort of routine and also to enjoy every second I can with Kendra.

As you know we had a scare two weeks ago with the abscess under Kendra's arm and our visit to the Paediatric assessment unit. Well we ended up back there last Thursday evening after me throwing a real wobbly and convincing myself that we were loosing her.

Kendra had been fine in the morning but after her lunch time feed she became very lethargic and pale. I struggled to wake her for feeds and when she did feed she vomited most of it back. In the evening when Phil came home she continued to sleep and her hands and feet were quite blue. We rushed over to the assessment unit at about half nine and by the time we got there Kendra's colour had improved but she was still very sleepy. They checked Kendra's heartbeat and breathing which were both fine and asked that we try and feed her so they could assess whether she was retaining enough feed do that she would not become dehydrated. At about 12 midnight Phil managed to wake Kendra enough so that she would at least feed and thankfully she was only sick a small amount.

The doctors were terrific on this visit and offered that they would keep Kendra in for observation if we wished but they were happy with her and were happy if we wanted to take her home. As Kendra was much better than she had been we both wanted to take her home which was what we did.

I explained to the doctors that it was no disrespect to them but all the reassurance they tried to offer was in vain until I was happy she was ok as I had been told constantly by people that Keaton was ok and he still died, he was fine, he was healthy and he still died!!!

Most of our family have had a D & V bug over the last week or two so the doctors were sure that Kendra had picked up this bug. She is much better than she was even though her tummy is still a little upset.

The things this made me realise is that I could not cope if anything happened to Elise or Kendra. I am so scared that I will loose one or both of them. I will be grey before Kendra is one...................

The hospital were great and said that anytime we want Kendra checking out they would be happy to review her. Phil also said that he will happily take us to the hospital every day so long as Kendra is ok.

I hope that is the last of our visits not sure my heart or my mind could take anymore.

Teresa xxxx