Things are beginning to get harder...

[mummy of twin angels]

I feel really ashamed and embarrassed that i dont feel i'm coping very well with Sophie :-(
I love her to bits and would never hurt her, i am so worried all the time that something may happen to her - its starting to take over my life! I am paranoid all the time about ppl holding her, even family! even my mum! I've made myself let my mum and dad take her out for the afternoon - but the whole time i sit holding my phone just incase!

I've spoken to my health visitor about it all, anbeen to see my doctor - they have told me i've got PND! I cant believe it, i've wanted this so much for such a long time - and then when little miss is here i get depressed! it doesnt make sense!?!

Ppl ask me why am i so protective of her - my friend has also just had a baby and lets our other friend babysit - i feel like they are getting closer because of that, and i do feel left out and that they think i'm being stupid, but i can help it! I dont want to miss a thing or risk losing her....

I don think i thought about things very much when we spoke about having another baby - i would never wsh her away but i someimes wonder if it was too soon after the twins...

Charlotte
xx

[davids- mummy]

  aww charlotte i am so sorry you suffering with pnd , it is only normal to be protective or your baby esp after a loss we want to be with them 24 /7 i hope you feel better soon 

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

 

I Know exactly what you mean, I left my little ones with my mum a few weeks back for an hour while i did some shopping, I had only left them about 10 minutes when my mobile rang and it was my mum  My heart was in my throat and i was actually scared to answer the phone, but when I did my mum only wanted to ask me to bring her back a pint of milk 

It does get easier in time I promise. For the people that dont understand, Stuff them!!!

 

[Dani]

you are just making usre that your baby is safe.
Don't be too hard on yourself it will get better
Danielle