hi
although I'm most probably a well known figure (or part of the furniture on ofb lol) thought I'd introduce myself on this side ...........
I knew like with my other two before I done the test that I was pregnant I did the test in april .I had a feeling it was twins I was carrying and were a boy n girl as had dreams of pushing a buggy with one baby in a blue hat n one in a pink hat .......... dreams that were taken from me
I had my first scan early due to some spotting @ 10 weeks so couldnt see the screen when she asked if there was twins in the family I cried with happiness as I was a twin ............ although my twin sister was still born due to twin to twin syndrome so when I was told there was two placentas I relaxed a bit and to top it all they were due on 25th december 2006
I went for all my checkups as normal and was always told there was two heartbeats but I felt less movement the week before my 21 week scan think james had got tired of making up for two lol anyway had a check up got told it was fine so on the day of my 21 week scan Our worlds fell apart when they couldnt find twin 2 (angels) heartbeat I cried n cried n tried to run my head was so messed up I was hurting from losing Angel but also should have been happy for james but the hurting was so much. I had to carry Angel for a further 3 months til I had james. They told me she had died @ around 16 weeks of turners syndrome one x chromezone where girls have two and was told had she lived she would have had a lot of severe probs including organ failures short stature and fluid retention ....... it was the fluid retention that killed her in the womb as it flooded her lungs n brain drowning her.
10 weeks later 26th october I moved back down to the south from leicester to be nearer family and my partner then the following day I was in hospital with pre eclampsia and scared of losing james too I was kept in hospital on close monitoring as was really bad until james was born by c section on 24th november as his placenta was breaking down within me and he was losing weight
he only weighed a small 5lb 3ozs but he struggled to feed in the beginning and went to a mere 4lb 8 he was quite poorly but thankfully throughout every thing and all the hurdles over come I now have a really sweet 21 month old (when not throwing a terrible 2's paddy lol)
I very often find myself looking at james though and wondering if angel was here would she etc??? but I know angel is here ........ only the other day james said to me angel so I asked where angel was and he pointed up to the opposite corner to her shelf (which is where I expected him to point) and said up there !
tess
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