It was just me and Madison (my three year old) today as erin was having a napp and the older two were at school ,
we were making lunch and chatting and she asked if ethan can come home yet , or is he still grounded.
I said ''no baby ethan hasn't been bad but he had to go to heaven to be with grandad prickles (my grandad) because grandad was lonely , ''
so as she tucked into her sandwich she replied ok but next time tell ethan he don't have to go heaven to see grandad cos he's at the allotment with his vegggible ( she got confused thinking it was my FIL who is still very much alive)
Normally i get a lump in my throat when she started talking about Ethan but today i just felt '' Oh maddie I do love you ''

I don't think madison will ever totally understand why Ethan had to leave us but her innocence is a strange comfort to me at times too and ,I'm not 100% sure I'm completely understand why any of our angels had to leave us either ...