Feeling Guilty

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

The lovely woman from ebay got back to me today, She found me a three  Everything is going as planned for Jakes Birthday BUT Josh's birthday is 14 days before Jakes and I havent organised a thing for him.

I have bought his presents but other than that I just can do anything for him 

I feel like a terrible person and a useless parent right now. I love both my boys (and my lil lady) more than anything but why is this birthday so hard?

What sort of parent cant bring themselves to celebrate the 2nd birthday of a longed for child?

Maybe I dont deserve my children if I cant stop my grief interfering in there lives

[Bretts mummy Emma]

  Aww hun don't feel like that. You are not a bad parent at all. I'm sure that whatever you have planned for Josh's birthday he will love. 

Don't beat yourself up you are a fantastic mummy and the fact that you have put so much thought into Jake's birthday shows this. Josh is turning 2 and will not remember his birthday (Can you remember your 2nd birthday?) Hope this helps xxxx


Emma xxx

[karaokej88]

 

i think you will have lots planned for your angel more so than any l/c because you do things every day for your l/c but for our angels we only get the anniversaries, which is hard.

but i bet josh will love whatever you decide to do for him hun, dont beat yourself up you have done nothing wrong, and you definitley deserve all your beautiful children, whether walking or flying.

love jane.xxxx

[Olliemam+1]

Mel

Sweetheart   you are not a bad mammy you are the best mammy in the world and all of your children know it.  Things are bound to be hard with both days being so close together.  Sending you all my love, god bless.


Take care


Dawn xxxx.  

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

  just wanted to give you a big hug babe 

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Still have nothing in place for Joshs birthday,

It is now only nine days away.

Have played with the idea of having a small party for him the saturday after but that is the 11th and only takes me even closer to jakes 3rd birthday on the 20th, Will I be able to cope 

I know I have to do something and fast but my heart just isnt in it this year