Things don't really move on do they? (Lc Ment)

[Teresa ~ Keaton's Mommy]

Hi Ladies

I learned a log time ago that I would never (or would ever want to) get over the death of Keaton and that I would live with this pain for the rest of my life yet it still hits me like a ton of bricks sometimes just how much I miss him and how in an instant I can be back there on that terrible day. What seem like silly simple things bring it all back. Today I was watching 'This Morning' and listening to James Blunt sing a song I have heard him sing time and time again but the line 'i'm watching you breathing for the last time' made me sob and even now typing there are tears in my eyes. I held Kendra close and told her I love her so much but that I love and miss her brother so much too. I love her for who she is and would not change her in the slightest but Keaton was my little man the little boy I so wanted and I was robbed of him so cruelly. Why have any of us been put through this heartache when there are so many in this world who do not deserve the chances they are given...........

Teresa xx

[Olliemam+1]

Teresa

I know exactly what you are saying, I will never get over loosing my angel but you are right a simplist thing can trigger off flood of tears.  I was lighting candles on GTS last night and I was floods of tears. 

Sending you all my love


Dawn xxxx.   

[Pamela]

I said those exact words to my partner gary last nigh, how it infuriates me that some people who dont deserve kids treat them so bad and get away with it. Yet here we all are it doesnt make sense. We would give anything to have them back and others well...... it's just wrong!

The good and bad days I am finding as what is normal for us now - I hope you are feeling a little better xx

[karaokej88]

 

hun i have said the same thing many a time myself, people who dont deserve to have children and who treat their kids badly get to keep their kids but us parents who would have loved them to the end of the world and more lose babies it is not a fair waty to do things at all.

love jane.xxxx

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

  we all feel the same hun , its so hard ,the worse days for me are when im happy ,as i feel guilty , we all love are children so much , the only way we can show this is crying and reliveing the terrible day when they where taken , as this is all we have left ... 

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

 

Although life around us seems to move on quickly,I dont think we as mummies can move on.

You have been blessed with beautiful Kendra but you should still have your little boy here as well.It is cruel and unfair

 

[elenors mummy]

no words just hugs hun..... i know your pain xxxx

[Bretts mummy Emma]

I know how you feel hunny I really do 

[cole9922]

I have been feeling exactly the same way.  Why do people who really want children have all the heartache?  It just does not seem fair. I also find myself comparing myself to my pregnant friend and I am thinking, I ate healthy, I did not smoke etc etc so why did this happen to me?  I guess I will never have those answers.

I am so sorry for your pain.

[Teresa ~ Keaton's Mommy]

i know what u mean sometimes it hits me like it only happened yesterday, it seems time isnt a healer, with summerjo i dnt have as much time to go to taylors grave which hurts like mad

I know what you mean Jo. I went to Keatons today and felt awful that I had not been for ages. I told him that it does not mean that I do not love or miss or think about him as much as ever and I know really that he knows.

Teresa xx

[Teresa ~ Keaton's Mommy]

Hi Jo

I am not sure really but maybe subconsciously I may of hoped this pain would not of been so bad. The reality is that it does hurt as much as ever doesn't it?

Teresa xx