Really confused.

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Josh turned 2 recently but he isnt a fantastic talker. Each new word is a milestone as they are so few and far between

Last night I was at Paula's sorting out my new tattoo's of Jakes foot prints. I bought home a photo copy of the foot prints and left them on the counter.

I was sat in the living room when I heard craig telling Josh they were Jakes footprints and saying Jake over and over again trying to get josh to copy him.

I was sitting there hoping that Josh wouldnt say it. I dont know why. But he did. And as soon as it was out of his mouth a little piece of me died inside.

He has been able to say Amy for ages (although it comes out as Mamy but I know what he means  ) because she is here everyday and he knows her.

All he will ever know Jake as is a photo or a print of his tiny feet. It isnt fair. I have been robbed of my firstborn and my children will never ever know there special big brother.

Maybe once I get used to it I will be glad to hear him say Jake's name. I know in time I will happily answer any questions he has about Jake but for now it hurts to hear him say it when he has so little understanding of who Jake really is.

Sorry to go on but you lot are the only people this will make any sense too

 

[marie Ethan's mum]

It's so hard to hear them say our angels names , not because we don't want them to share them but because our kids have lost something too sometimes with out even realising it...been robbed of older or younger brothers or sisters .. life is just so unfair .  

Hope one day it will be  easier for you to hear his name , I still struggle when me older kids mention ethan and dread the day erin learns to say it too, but I want him still to be apart of our family so it's something I'll have to get my head round eventually

sending you lots of love and a big well done to Josh for learning to say a very very special  name ...   

[Paula_xox_]

 

Awwww Mel

It so hard to hear your lc talkin/saying your angels name. I sometimes get all choked up when Sarah & Matthew talk about the boys...more so Matthew as he seems more sensitive and talks about them quite a lot. It makes me sad that they will never know the boys and the "wee ones" on this earth but i'm sure we'll all meet up one day.

Josh will love his big brother just as much as he loves Amy as I know that you won't let Jake and his memory be forgotten and brushed under the carpet. It will hurt you to know that he wont know his big brother but i think it would hurt even more if Josh didn't talk about him iykwim.

Why cant life be simple ??????????????

Love to you all

Paula xox

[claire-enzo'smommy]

Mel i know how hard it is to here our angels name Both Ellisia and James say Enzo's name what seems like a hundred times a day and evrytime i hear it my heart ends up in my mouth but i also in a wierd kinda way like it as i know Enzo is forever a part of our lives and his memory will never be forgotten  to you Mel  and especially Jake and your little sweetheart Josh &  to Amy -May

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