could i have done this??

[emmie's mammy]

yestarday iwas havving a conversation with my aunt, we were talking about how much better ive been since letting all my greif go and so on, she asked me if i thought with havving had 4 kids after emmie that i might have been trying to compensate for her. not replace her but in a way trying to get her back. i wasnt upset by her asking as she said it meaning no harm atal but it got me thinking, could that be wat ive done?? in havving all these kids was it my unconcious way of trying to get her back. im a little confused coz i kno i could never have her but in my heart always want her. anyone ever thought like this b4. its anew one 4 me.xxx

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

I will put my hands up and say, when I was trying for Josh I really believed I was gonna get Jake back. Infact through my pregnancy I almost convinced myself it was Jake. It all changed once Josh was born. He wasnt Jake (obviously) and that took a while for me to come to terms with.

I think no matter how many living children we go on to have. We will always have the urge for another to try and fill the hole

 

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

  hi babe how weird im trying to concive and last night i lay awake thinking am i trying to get pregnant to bring finlay back , and my answer in a way was yes , i no what you mean xxxx

[marie~elises mummy]

 i wonder this often also, having had 3 boys snce elise and now being pregnant again, we just really want our angels back. i no this will probably be my last pregnancy and am so not gonna like the thourght of having not any more children again but i just want elise back. i realy live in hope that this baby is a girl , not to replace her. i sometimes feel like am being punished, daft i no