Lately Daisy's loss seems so raw. I don't know if it is because Seth is here and now guilt has kicked in. Sometimes my heart just breaks looking at him, he looks so much like his big sister.
What hurts is that people seem to think one baby replaces another. The other day Paul's mum said she was thrilled that she had 2 grandchildren, a boy and a girl...the girl being Millie, Paul's niece. I could have screamed at her...she has three, THREE......stupid, thoughtless woman. I wish I did react, I felt like I had let Daisy down by just sitting there motionless. I miss he so much, I wish I could give her all the same things I can Seth and I hate that so many people think I should just move on and be thankful. Off course I'm thankful, but it doesn't fill that big hole of heartbreak, it doesn't mean I don't wake up everyday and wish she were HERE with me too.
It hurts that people just expect you to move on....it hurts even more that they move on by ingnoring the fact Daisy existed, and still exists as a little angel.
much love Ali
xxxx
