Josh is quite big for his age, Everyone mistakes him for being a 3 yr old

But in my eyes he is still my little 6 weeks premature 5lb 12 ozs baby boy..... Until yesterday
His new hair cut has made him look soooo much older, I went to my mums to show her and the first thing she said was 'he could definitly pass for 3 now' But he isnt 3, Jake is!!
When I look at Josh now, he looks so much more like the image I have of Jake in my head

Having people telling me Josh looks 3 really doesnt help because I should have a 3 year old here with me too.
13 days to christmas and I have lost all interest, I know I will never got the one thing that can make me truely happy, My little boy back
