Josh made me cry :(

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

I ordered a Jake teddy for my little mans grave before christmas, The lady was on holiday and to be honest I had almost forgot about it.

Anyways it arrived today, I opened it while Josh was around 

He started going mad crying and the normal bad temper stuff when I told him it wasnt for him. Craig came in and told him it was for Jake and he just calmed down instantly and started running round the living room singing 'Jakes teddy' 

A similar thing happen before christmas too. Josh is crazy about 'choo choo's' and when Jakes solar light arrived he REALLY wanted to get his hands on it. He calmed down when I said it was for Jake  I didnt think much off it at the time but now it has happened again and I'm wondering does he really understand who Jake is?

He knows his photograph. I have pictures of all 3 of them on the wall beside my bed, They are the first thing I see in the morning. Josh can tell you who they all are, 'Jake, Me and Mamy'. I have told him that the necklace he loves to tug on is Jakes, But other than that I dont really speak about him all that much around him. He hasnt been able to understand all that long but when he does he seems to get a bit muddled between Jake and Amy-May. 

Maybe he knows more than I realise, He certainly doesnt calm down if I tell him something is Amy's, He just wants it even more.

It sounds terrible but a part of me doesnt want him to understand, Not yet. He is too young to know about death and hurt and missing people.

I know this wont make much sense but thank you for reading,

A much confused Mel 

 

[Olliemam+1]

Mel

I have not told Oliver about his big Angel sister, just that he has a special Angel that watches over him from her cloud from haven.   I do believe that he knows that he has an Angel, and what an Angel is, but I am going to tell him all about his sister whn he is big enough.  I think that Josh dos know that Jake is his beautiful big brother.

Take care

Dawn xxxxxx. 

[davids- mummy]

  mel i reckon josh knows more than you realise that he has a special big brother in the sky 

[Laura~Tyler&Taylor'sMommy]

Awww that's really sweet, I'm sure Josh knows more than you realise about his big brother.

I know what you mean about being too young to understand about death etc, Chlo??'s 6 and she still doesn't know about Taylor.

Laura 

[Blakes Mummy]

its amazing just what kids do remember though if they are older siblings my now 22 yr old was 5 when he brother passed away and she remebers wayyyy to much of it for my liking. :(

[marie~elises mummy]

they do seem to take in more then we realise. 

[Bretts mummy Emma]

Awwwwww  I am sure that Josh understands more than you realise hun. Children are more acceptable of things they don't understand how to change. After Brett passed away Joel who was almost 3 at the time seemed to just accept that Brett wasn't with us anymore    which at the time upset me but I suppose it's just the way that a small child's mind works. 

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

 

[audrey]

 
Hi,,My wee grandson was nearly 1 year old when his wee sister was born an angel.He surprised us a few times as he remembers everything about what happened on the day his sister was brought to the house before the funeral.He also remembers her funeral and loves to help us clean up her garden( We use this word rather than grave)He also has a small patch there that we let him put stuff on from him to his sister.We were up at the garden putting flowers there  for my sister as her ashes are also beside the baby.We were tidying things up and taking turns to hold my daughters 16 month old daughter at the time as she was a bit crabby.I was talking to her and saying things like mummy and Nana are cleaning the garden for Kelsey when the 16 month old shouted out Kelsey as clear as day.It was the first time she has said it and it made us a bit weepy to know she was shouting her big sisters name.It also stunned us as it was so clear.  xx