The missing person

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Today I have had one of those days when the missing person in my family is just so obvious.

We went out to try and get some ideas of what to get amy-may for her birthday (still clueless  ) We came back with a slide and a water and sand play thing for the garden We got home and set it all up and Josh was having a brilliant time. Amy is a bit too small to play with them but she was giggling away at josh going down the slide and splashing in the water. Then we went to fly our kite since its sooo windy and the string broke and it flew away on us!! Josh was in tears but I think maybe Jake decided he wanted a go too.

It has been a nice day as days go but it has made me so sad that Jake will never play with these toys and I will never hear his giggles or laugh at him when he does silly things there has been an emptiness today that only a 3 and a half year old could fill.

I'll never stop being thankful that Josh and Amy-May are here with me. I just wish days like this weren't so painful and that my family was complete.

Im sure Jake was watching all the fun, Maybe wishing he could be here too 

I took loads of photos today and although Im not a big believer in orbs and the like I found myself searcing the photos for any sign that my little boy was with us. (I know that sounds mad) I found nothing.

Sorry to go on

 

[Belles Mummy]

AAaaww Mel thats so sad, I have tears rolling dowm my face reading your post, Belle is always mentioned in our house everyday and I think it will always be like this, I think alot like you about weather she is watching us and looking for a sign or something to let me know she is! And I am sure Jake is watching and smiling down on all of you. 

[Bretts mummy Emma]

I know exactly how you feel today Mel I feel the same way maybe there is something in the sir that is making us feel like this today   I was thinking earlier while cutting my lc hair that I will never be able to cut his hair or run him a bath cos the little hairs are sticking in him afterwards   it's the little things like that, that I can't get out of my head the small things that most ppl take for granted  

[pauline-davids mummy]

mel no matter how many children we have our familys will never be complete and although our little ones will make us laugh and giggle at what they do we will always have a broken heart , thinking of you and jake 

[Olliemam+1]

Mel

Bless you xxxx.  It must have been a one of those "what if" days for a few of us today.  Oliver was playing in the sitting room with his best friend Ellie who is 6 and they were laughing together and I was sitting watching them thinking I wonder if that is what Lauren and Oliver would have been like playing together?  I thank god everyday for Oliver and think that how ever much we love ALL of our children we will always have these days where we wonder more than usual.

Take care

Dawn xxxxx. 

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

god i can just relate to these posts so, so much. Mel-you don't need orbs to know jake is with you. I'm glad you turned your what ifs into a happy thought of jake pinching the kite. Big hugs x

[emma~Alfiesmummy]

  Mel.

I too can relate to your post. Today we went for a family walk and th fact someone was missing was a little bit more prominent. We should have been taking a pram with us as well today.

I know Alfie is with us wherever we go and in whatever we do. As Jake is with you. As all our angels are.

I think today I have felt Alfie's absence more is because I am getting ready for my birthday tomorrow.

We are going to visit him tomorrow and take him new flowers.

Sending you and Jake big  and 

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

  i 2 check my photos for orbs but i have neaver found nothin  , i wish i could bring back all our angels xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Alison74]

No words just for you Mel.x