Everything i do there should be two

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

Today i've been arranging Holly's nursery for September. It's until she goes to school nursery, whilst i'm at college.
God, i can't even bear to hand Holly's form in at the nursery. I should be handing in two.
Everything i do there should be two.

[Blakes Mummy]

Kim I wish i had the words to help but i don't, all I can say is i am here if ever you need a shoulder hun

hugsssss 

[GillyF]

And you will always have to bear that, Kim, because there should have been two.

It is immensely difficult for anybody who has lost a child because they will always think of what should have been, the difficulty with a surviving twin (or the children of higher order births of course) is that you live with and care for the constant reminders of what should have been. You look at their twin when you're bathing them, feeding them, playing with them and think how there should be two children together and it is so hard because you mourn both your loss and theirs.

My son is an only child now and in all likelihood always will be and at times I find it so hard to accept. Yesterday in church the vicar was talking about the Holy Trinity and it was most painful because I've felt this ever since my son died. We were a trinity and one of us is gone. The two of us will always mourn him and think of what should have been.

I miss my little boy so much too.

best wishes,

Gilly
 

[mum2evan+dyfan]

always here for you.

Kathxxx

[mnj_1688]

 

[Bretts mummy Emma]

Kim these days are so much more difficult :(

When I moved here to Wragby I made friends with a woman who's son is only 6 weeks older than Brett :( and now I can't go to her house cos watching her son running around having fun hurts so much :(

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Hugs to you kim. Life is so unfair.

Everything I do with Josh I think 'I should have already done this'

Somethings just make the hole in our families seem even bigger

 

[Alison - Lucys Mammy]

  Aww Kim I can imagine how you are feeling, Kate is leaving playgroup for "BIG" school in 2 weeks time and Lucy should have been starting in the playgroup this Sept - life is just so unfair....

Sending you lots and lots of  's

Ali
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