lone twin life

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

on wednesday my eldest had a ceremony where she recieved her pre-school file, 3-5yrs. I was feeling emotional as shes my eldest, growing up so fast. But felt a fool, everyone else weeps, i sob. I just can't cry without associating it with ben. I cried for ash but then for my fears for the future, how will i cope when it's hollys ceremony and ben should be there? I just wanted to leave the hall, nobody would have realised how hard simple things like that are for me, not that i'd ever want them to live the life we do. Its times like these i question things. I've always believed holly was to get me through, but why be blessed with twins to be cheated out of them and have even more what ifs. I'm so blessed to have had ben and have hol, but it's going to get harder having a lone twin as she grows up x

[Susan - Tobias & Tanesha's Mummy]

   

[Belles Mummy]

Kim this is just so sad and my heart breaks for you as you are right that every milestone Holly meets you will always know that Ben should be there to meet it with her and for you to be watching, He is always with you though and lives on through Holly and although this is not the same and he should be with you he was just too beautiful for earth, You are a special mummy Kim with a special angel watching over you

 

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

its just so frustrating that i know theres nothing that i can do about it :(

[mum2evan+dyfan]

i can't imagine how much of a gap you feel watching Hol grow up and knowing Ben should be there with her too.
but he is there Kim, he's with you all the time and i bet he's on Hol's shoulder teasing her that he would have done it better than her!
he'll always live on through his twin and she will grow up knowing about him and carrying him with her.

Kathxxx

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

  for you Kim.

Its so unfair

 

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[Bretts mummy Emma]