Boy things

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Feeling a little crappy today.

This year for christmas I have got Josh is first proper little Man U kit with his name and 06 printed on it (he was born 06/10/06) It arrived yesterday and it is very cute but all I could think when I was opening it was 'there should be two' They would probably both need size 3/4, Josh is quite tall for his age and in my mind Jake is a little dinkier. I was thinking about what number would be on Jakes. I would have probably gotten him 05 on his. Then today at my mums she was asking what she should get Josh for christmas and I found myself answering all the things that I was thinking Jake would maybe like this year.

Presents for Josh havent been so bad up to now but now he is a proper little man and we're getting him 'boy things' and I cant do anything like that for Jake 

I already dread christmas day. There will be so many little fights missing from my home. My boys should be arguing and fighting over who got the best toys and getting dressed up in matching outfits and looking all smart and grown up for all of 5 minutes until they get all dirty and messy and covered in chocolate 

Just feeling so emotional today. All the fireworks last night really set me off. Halloween four years ago I tried to tell myself Jake would be enjoying the fireworks as he settled in with all the other angels but all I really want to do was run out and scream at everyone setting them of 'dont you know my baby has just died!!!'

Just one of those days today 

 

[Olliemam+1]

Mel

Bless you heart, I am so so sorry that you are having such a bad day, sending you loads and loads of 

Dawn xxxxx. 

[pauline-davids mummy]

 

[Bretts mummy Emma]

 

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

mel, sorry your having a difficult time. Christmas is hard, it reminds us of what we have lost. Naturally you think of all your children when planning presents, i can't think of the girls lists without bens 'should have been' list, and i too just know what he'd be wearing xmas day. I feel sorry for josh to be missing out on his big brother. I'll post a special link when i get on the laptop-an idea for you! Big hugs mel X

[mum2evan+dyfan]

i'm sorry mel i have no words.  its just unfair.

 

Kathxxx

[Blakes Mummy]

thinking of you Mel, I remember when mine were little and i should have had 3 of everything its heart breaking.

hugssssssss

love to you and your beautiful family

 

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

  big hugs babe xxxxxxxxxxx

[ConniesMammy.]

Mel its just not right hun your Jake should be here besides his brother as you said fighting over the choccies at christmas,im sure thought that if he did have that shirt the number on the front would be no.1.
               

[marie~elises mummy]