feeling down i am barely getting time with ben any more as i am working 40 hours a week in my new job and to be honest feel so jelous and resentful of simon because ben has gone from being a mummy;s boy he would only want me to now he wants only simon cause i am not there for him any more, feel rubbish and angry i get an hour with him in the evening and about 20 minutes in the morning it makes me feel angry ,also today got talking to a lovely customer at work only to find out she was training to be a social worker her words well i suppose i will always be in a job making a living out of others misery
omg we had been talking about redundancy and state of country before then sorry baring kath on here i have a complete anger resentment hatred for social workers they represent anger misery incompetance and sheer hatred in my emotions sorry but tommorow i am seeing a pyschologist to start to help me heal from that experience and cbt and to be honest when she said that i felt i could of stuck my fingers up at her and told her to go to hell and maybe learn about mental illness and post natel depression and not to judge and make a women feel like a monster like her collegues made me feel at a very traumatic time. why dont they get trained in that and see not all people who are and were as ill as me at the time are like the baby P parents they are ill frightened and vulnerable and dont need the threat of you have no right to your child and we could take them off you because you are ill and we think you are a high risk sorry but go to hell i love my child and if i was a danger to him i would give him away but i was not i was post traumatic stressed and ill and very frightened and what did they do they made my living hell and knightmare beyond all knightmares
sorry awful post i know
lisa
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