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marie Ethan's mum
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« on: December 25, 2009, 08:27:32 PM » |
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well the kids have gone to bed after an exciting but long day for them and as I finally sit down for the first time since eating my xmas dinner I find myself thinking back to exactly this time three years ago when I was 22 plus 6 days pregnant with my twins , at this time i remember thinking I was just over half way through when in reality I only had another 12days left , i have relived those twelve days over and over again in my head could I have stopped them coming so soon, could I have prevented it
I just want answers to why they came so early I know ethan passed away because he contracted MRSA but would he have been been strong enough to fight it and win if he hadn't have been born so early , I look at erin and my older children every day I realise how very very lucky I am to have them but I still wish I had him too xxxxx
I wish we all still had our children xxxx
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kimbobt84-BensMummy
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« Reply #2 on: December 25, 2009, 10:06:51 PM » |
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marie, i hate not having the answer to why? But i don't think there is an answer to justify why any of our babies arnt with us. I wish they were x
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« Reply #4 on: December 25, 2009, 11:36:22 PM » |
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i go over in my head still lots ,
was it lifting madison and carrying here home from the bus the day I later went into labour
did i have an infection they didn't check for
if I had took the braxton hicks seriously could they have stopped them if they had had more time.
when i have got over the xmas emotions I get his birthday emotions , their birthday emotions. I want to hold them both again xxxxxxx
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« Reply #5 on: December 26, 2009, 12:23:41 AM » |
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you CANT blame yourself marie, i know we all do when we're searching for answers, but you never wanted any of this to happen therefore it isnt your fault. I'm sorry it's such a difficult time of year for you. Can't believe Erin will be 3!! X
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« Reply #6 on: December 26, 2009, 04:27:17 PM » |
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It is such a difficult time of year. xoxoxo
Catherine, Northern Ireland
Mother to Max Paul, 17th May 2003 ??? Stillborn at 24wks
Mother to Olivia Mary ??? 16th January 2004 ??? 20wks Plac. abruption/IC
Mother to Grace Catherine ??? 30th July 2004 ??? 22.3wks Failed TVC/IC
TAC GRADUATE to Emily Philomena 33.6wks ??? 5th January 2006 - OUR MIRACLE
Currently 26 wks pregnant with TAC baby No. 2
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