not really new but returning after being away for a while

[del (angel ellies mummy)]

hey everyone I'm Adelle, Ellie's mummy, my daughter was stillborn 7yrs ago, its been a while since Ive been on here and thought id pay everyone a visit and reintroduce myself, we were looking forward to bring our daughter into the world 7yrs ago and without warning we lost her, i went in2 labour on Ellie's due date and when we got to the hospital my contractions stopped, they tried to find her heart beat and couldn't so they done a scan and it confirmed our worst fear....she was gone    my labour was sped up and i gave birth to a gorgeous baby girl, they didn't try and revive her or anything, that was heart breaking, pm results came back that everything was fine and we didn't get a reason as to why our daughter had died, 7yrs on and its still hard, i don't believe people wen they say it gets easier because it doesn't really, it gets easier to smile and get on with Ur live but the pain never goes away, behind the smiles is a heart broken mother who gets up in the morning simply because Ive got 2 kids who need a mummy to be there for them as they're life goes on and they are the most important things in my life if it wasn't for them i would have easily stayed in bed and let life pass me by so Ive got alot to thank my 2 boys for , sori if i babbled on a bit

luv to all ur angels
luv del xxxxx

[Olliemam+1]

Bless you Del,

I know exactly what you mean about time not getting esier, I just think we learn to cope and how to use your "I am ok" face in public.  Welcome back to OFB.

Love to you and your precious Ellie.

Take care

Dawn xxxxx.

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

Welcome back Del.

Really nice to hear from you.

7 years sounds like a long time, but it really isn't long at all when your talking about living without a much loved little girl.

I'm sure she is watching over you and is very proud of you and her brothers

 

[Belles Mummy]

Welcome back Del,

Lots of  to your little girl and some for you xxx

[del (angel ellies mummy)]

being on here in the past really helped me deal with alot of things and helped me to move with my life a bit more, i still find it hard to talk bout ellie with people who dont know wat happened, theres always sumthing that sets u back a bit now and again, a manager at my work lost her baby about 8wks ago and shes just returned to work and weve never really got on in the past, i seen her last nite and smiled at her but dont want to look like a hypocrit by acting as if we were friends b4 and trying to give her sum advice on wat mite help her to cope or to offer an ear if she needs it cause weve suffered the same kind of loss, anybody any suggestions how i should tackle this problem cause i just feel as if i want to try and help her but dont want her to think "well we never spoke b4 so why should we now" kinda thing, does any1 understand where im coming from?  PLEASE HELP!!!!!!


luv del xxx

[Olliemam+1]

Del

How about approaching her and letting her know you are around if she needs to chat, even though you were not great friends before I am sure she would appreciate it, just a thought.

Take care

Dawn xxxxx. 

[suzanne]

welcome back adelle. i totally understand where you are coming from as my caitlin will be 7 in 10days time. it never really gets any easier. i just think we find a new way of coping day to day. as for your colleague at work i would imagine she would be grateful for any kind words to help her through these tough times. i dont think she will take the attitude of 'why speak now when you didnt before'. 

[del (angel ellies mummy)]

thanks for all ur replies/comments, sometimes i dont know how to take her half the time aswel which makes it more difficult to speak to her, mite leave it a week or so and let her get back on her feet at work first cause shes only came back part time at the moment, just feel like giving her a cuddle and saying "ur not alone and i know wat ur going thro" dont want to upset her tho cause got told she took it really really bad wen she lost the baby, she was 20wks and had had problems with her pelvis, she was in constant pain at work and could hardly walk most days

luv del xxxx

[marie~elises mummy]