truthful feelings

[Nyahsmummy]

I wrote this a month after Nyah passed away


If you ask me how I am today,
I’ll smile and say I’m fine.
You’ll smile then walk away from me
Saying ‘I told you it takes time’

Time is something I have got
As I wander place to place
As I look around the people I see
Searching for my babies face.

I’m not really sure where time goes,
As I sit here all alone,
People try to talk to me
But I just cry, ignore the phone.

I sit alone, I cry, I shake
Just thinking of what should’ve been
And then I look around
I’m hearing someone scream

It’s a sound of fear, pain and hurt
But no person can I see
As I look around to help that soul
I realise that soul is me.

I break down and fall to my knees
And cry for my poor baby
Why did she have to go from me?
Life is all why’s if’s and maybe

So when you ask me how I feel today
Don’t be fooled by the words I give
Ask to talk about my baby girl,
And make me want to live

I’ll tell you she is beautiful
A real fighter like her mum
I’ll tell you how she looked at me
While we waited for the sun

I’ll tell you how my heart broke the day
She had to leave us and was gone
Then let me cry and break down
Then just hold me till I’m done.

[butterflyAdam]

Kelsey

That is just straight from the heart.  Every bit of it is so true, especially wanting people to acknowledge our angels.  Thanks for sharing it with us. 

Eleanor x

[sharon 76]

Kelsey,
           What a beautiful poem, the words  express your pain after saying goodbye to Nyah so clearly.I have to say i shed tears reading it, thankyou for sharing.

Sharon x

[Laura]

Thats such a nice poem and every word so so true