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[Anne-Marie]

Hi,
I'm Anne-Marie. I have one beautiful daughter Ella. After her birth, I lost one baby at 10 weeks on 1st Feb 2007, and lost another baby at 6 weeks on 1st April 2007.

Anne-Marie

[Lucieg]

Hi I'm Lucie I'm 25 have 4 kids Alex 7, Jess 6, Jodie 4 and Dillon 22 months and i lost my baby on 28th Jan 07 , 7 wks preg and i think he was a boy so to help me deal a little better i gave him a name, Jamie Steven

[da mama]

Hi I'm Julie

Lost a very much longed for baby (after 6 years of trying)  11/03/05. I was just under 10 weeks pregnant and had only known for 9 days I was pregnant.

Also on 29/08/05 my sister had a stillborn baby boy.

Both babies would of been loved so much.

[kazbro]

hi i`m kaz i`m a regular on bounty

here is my story

well i`m kaz i`m 40 and m,arried to alan who`s 50
this is my second marriage
 
where do  i start
i met my 1st husband paul in 1986 we were both 20
we got engaged in 1987 and married in 1988
 
we started trying for a family almost straight away but i didn`t fall pregnant until 1989
sadly we lost the baby at 8 weeks gestation we were told sorry but it`s one of those things that happens
not to be put off we tried again and fell for my son jamie
at 12 weeks gestation i had a huge bleed and was rushed in
i was told i`d lost a baby within the hour we found out i was having twins and by some miracle we carried on with jamie
i had a difficult pregnancy with mild PE but he arrived  at 35 weeks on the 4th march 1991( my birthday)
my waters had spontainiesly broken so i wa sput on a drip to start my contractions, jamie had to go to special care for a few dasy as he was grunting and cold he also wa vey jaundiced so had to have phototherapy
he was tube fed as he wouldn`t eat and needed oxygen every now and then
 
we then spent the next 2 years in and out of hospital due to his very low immune sytem if it was about he got it but i`m glad to say he`s now a very healthy 15yr old
 
i feel pregnant again and all was going well until july 1992 i started to bleed
my dad took me to hospital where i was examined
i was told to come back the next day for a scan as as far as they could see all was o.k but they`d check me tomorrow
doing as i was told i went home
that night my waters broke and i went into labour i was 22 weeks
my son ben was born dead he weighed 10oz very tiny
i was devastated all i kept thinking was not again
i just saw a glimpse of him as he was taken away on a little tray
a postmortom was done but we had no answers as to why
i was never allowed to hold him or bury him i had nothing to remember him by
 
to our suprise i fell pregnant again almost straight away
terrified with the 9 months i couldn`t enjoy the pregnancy but glad to say we had antony in june 1993 born at 37weeks old again i was induced due to bp
he was fine but i had a bit of a high bp afterwards so had to stay in for a while
 
in 1994 we had another loss at 9 weeks again no reason why
the consultant by this time decided to do tests
yet again no reason were found as to why this was happening
 
in 1995 i fell pregnant again
i was closely monitored and all seem to be going fine until i got to 27 weeks i felt odd very headachey and flu like
my gp sent me to hospital and within minutes i had consultants running around i had gone into early labour again
i was given steroids and put on a drip to try to stop the labout
it was ritrodine it was horrible stuff i though i was going to die it makes your heart palpitate
thankfully it worked labour stopped but i had to stay in hospital for weeks
i then was put on meds for my bp until i got to 36 weeks then i was induced due to bp rising i had PE again
karl was born oct 1995 weighing 6lb 12oz but he was poorly and had to go to special care
i finally had him back on the ward with me 5 days later but i had to stay on my meds due to bp
 
 
in august 1997 we had our last son dean he was born at 38 weeks
no problems with him and the pregnancy went well
 
in 2001 my marriage sadly broke up and then i met alan
i moved to telford to be with alan
 
we decided we`d like a child of our own
he is a great dad to the boys but one between us would have been nice
so we began trying
in in nov 2001 we found out i was expecting
sadly we lost the baby 17th dec 2001 i was 10 weeks
i couildn`t believe it not again
i thought it would be so different as alan was my new partner
i didn`t think i`d still hav eproblems
 
after a while we tried again yet again we lost the baby and in 2003 we lost our 3rd one together at 14 weeks
the consultants here done all the usual tests
she decided if i fell again i was to take aspirin as this can help some women
 
so after a lot of thought we decided to give it another go
jan 2004 i found out i was pregnant
so scared of even going to the loo i was a wreck and couldn`t enjoy the pregnancy
i was closely monitored
i had a few bleeds my worst being at 19 weeks i was sure we`d lost the baby but no there it was wiggling around i cried with relief i was then put on strict bed rest
god was i bored but i new it would be worth it in the end
at 26 weeks the dreaded bp started to rise again so i was put on antenalol and wa still on the aspirin
i then needed iron injections as it was so low
at 28 weeks i had to have some steroid injections for fear of the baby coming early
by 30 weeks that was it i wasin hospital and there i stayed bneing let out at weekends if i wa sgood
through all this the baby was fine a bit small but doing well in my tummy
i got to 37 weeks then they induced me
gemma was born on 28th august 2004
she was perfect needing no special care
i on the other hand went down hill ptretty fast my uric acid levels were still rising and my liver/kidneys were not doing to good
 
i wasput on a drip for 48mhours but then i was on the mend
i was in for 5 days then let home
3 days later i was rushed back in i had passed out with a huge headache the pain was unbearable my BP was 180/140
i was again put on a drip then they changed my tablets
i was in another 5 days then  finally started to get better
 
in may 2005 to our suprise we found i was expecting yet again i was so shocked
straight away i wa sput on the aspirin
i was due my dating scan in the oct but 3 days before i went i bled
we were checked over and found the baby had died a week before it was still there but no heart beat
i was told to wait a few days to see if nature would intervene and 3 days later i lost my 8th
 
definetly not wantinmg go through this any more alan booked in for the snip and had his letter in the jan saying hew was booked in for his op april 2006
2 weeks afternthe leter came i felt so sick and checking the dates realised i was a week late yes i waspregnant againn
i am a  walking fertility clinic i fall so easily
again saw consultant straight away started the aspirin and 2 weekly check ups started
had a scan at 6 weeks but they couldn`t see much then a 10 week scan revealed all was well
had another scan at 12 weeks again all was well
had a check up at 14 weeks and at 15 weeks had my bloods done for downs risk
as i was 40 i new i`d be high
the following week i go the call i was 1/17 risk
for my age i should have fallen in the 1/150 risk so when the results came back i was shocked
she asked if i wanted the amnio done but i was scared my risk of mc was so high but i new in my heart i needed to know so i could be prepared
on the tuesday i went to have the amnio the consultant 1st scanned me
from his face i new something was wrong he kept asking me if i was sure of my dates
i should have been 16 weeks and 4 days
he took my hand and said i`m so sorry i cant find a heartbeat
he asked me if i wanted to look i said yes there on the screen was my baby all snuggled up safely but not moving
all i kept saying was you got it wrong i`m here for my amnio it cant be dead my baby was o.k last week
i was taken to a room me and alan sat there sobbing i was shocked i was shaking i wanted to scream
i was given the talk and asked what i wanted to do
as i wasover 14 weeks the baby had to be born i had to give birth naturally
i screamed no i cant i cant do it please no dont make me
it took me ages to calm down
eventually it was decided i would go back on the thursday for a tablet then i was booked in on the saturday to be induced
on the friday tea time i bled and felt the 1st labour pains i was taken in
my beatiful baby boy was born on saturday the 20th may at 8.55 am weighing 2oz
he was the size of a mobile phone he was so tiny. it was a difficult labour its as if he didn`t want to leave me and it took ages
i had taken some clothing in for him they were no biger than a pocket hankie but big enough for my baby
i was allowed to hold him
alan was so supportive but he couldn`t bear to see him so he went home
that afternoon i asked for my son back and i spent all afternoon with him
i sat and cried but in my heart i was so proud of my baby he looked so perfect to me just very very tiny
his hands were the size of rice crispies and i was fortunate enough to have photos taken and his foot prints done
 
we named him craig
i had to leave craig sat tea time it was so hard to do i felt so empty but i was also happy that i ha dha dtime with craig just me and him as a mother and son should be
 
we weren`t allowed a proper burial for craig due to his age but we did have  a memorial service for him
we saw the consultant 6 weeks later he explained that as my risk for downs was so high he was pretty sure that that is why craig didn`t make it but again it could never be provend
 
it would have been craigs due date 21st oct 2006 and i am finding this month so so hard i think i`m o.k then the pain hits me like a huge wait in my heart
 
i have people ask me why then hell did you put yourself through so many losses why didn`t i just give up
i dont have any answers i have always believed in try and try again and through this belief  i have 5 wonderful children and 9 very special angels,
 
i have a web site in memory of craig and some pictures of my time with him
i look everyday and say hello
i just wish there would come a time that my heart would mend a little
 
kaz xxxx
 
here is the link to craigs site if anyone wanst to light a candle
please be warned he was very tiny and only just developing so the pictures could really upset you

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[Lucy]

Hi everyone,

Here is my story.......

I'm Lucy, I'm 31 and married to Peter. We are both doctors - myself a GP and Peter a surgeon. We live in Chesterfield, England. We have a son, Samuel, born in May 2005, and lost our identical twin boys at 17wks on the 6th January.

I have been a Type 1 diabetic for 29 years so pregnancy is always a bit of a difficult time for me. My first pregnancy was well planned - it took just over a year for me to conceive - and went very well untill my waters broke when I was 31 weeks pregnant. I had Sam a week later. Luckily he was OK and after 4 weeks on Special Care he was able to come home.

I found out I was pregnant again last October - after only 2 months of not being careful. We were thrilled. I was very anxious - my diabetes wasn't as well controlled as it could have been and I was worried about another premature baby. I had an early scan in view of my diabetes at 7 wks - it was then we were told the shock news that I was pregnant with twins. A viability scan 2 wks later showed they were both doing well. I had a further scan at 12 wks, this showed them to be monochorionic (identical) twins. They were growing well, really active and thier nuchal translucency measurements were low risk. I was still worried - about the risk of twin to twin transfusion and of course an increased liklihood that they may be prem, but after 3 scans all looking good I started to get excited and enjoy how special it felt being pregnant with twins. We began to breathe a sigh of relief and started to relax and think about the reality of having twins.
We had a great Christmas and New Year with our little boy. Our news was shared with all the family by then and everyone was so happy. I had thought I had been begining to feel the twins move and I was getting bigger.
I was due to be scanned every 2 wks from the start of January to monitor their growth. Peter could not have that much time off work so I went alone to my scan on the 4th of January. I remember it so clearly. I asked the sonongrapher as I was lying down if she would be able to tell the sex and she said she would look. I knew almost at once something was wrong - she asked me turn onto my side away from the screen, but I could see the head measurements were not as large as they should be and they weren't moving. I asked her if they were both dead and she said yes.
My husband was called and I decided to go home and go back in 2 days later to have a miscarriage induced. I felt so numb, it felt so unreal somehow. I still looked and felt pregnant but my two precious babies were dead.
The nurse looking after me in hospital was lovely and we were able to see them both after they were born - their little facial features were so small but perfect. The nurse said to me 'they look so peaceful, don't they' - and they did.

It looked as though they were both boys but did not have this confirmed until a month after they were born. Peter and I had not chosen names - we were waiting until we knew their sex. We have simply named them our twin boys. 

We are still awaiting the full pm reports, but now know they were identical boys. 


I am sorry we all have to be here, but I have found great solace in knowing I am not alone. I look forward to getting to know you all better.

(((((Hugs to you all)))))
Lucy xx

[Olliemam+1]

Hello Everyone
My name is Dawn, I am married to Gary and we have 1 beautiful baby boy who has just turned 2.  We sadly lost our 1st baby at around 7 weeks into the pregnancy.  The hospital could not tell us the sex of the baby (not sure if we would have wanted to know).  I had a mmc and had to go into hospital for a D&C.  I was realy ill for nearly 1 year after the mmc.  Once I was weel enough we tried again and we now have our beautiful little boy.  Not a day goes by when I don't think about the angel we lost.  Glad that I have found this sir and look forward to speaking with you all.  God bless.

[sarah-michelles-mommy]

hi im michelle im 22 (nearly) it all started 17-feb-04 with my first baby i got to 6weeks to find it was ectopic i lost baby ashley and my left tube, i went on to have my son william who is a blessing! but after william i had two m/c taylor @ 11weeks 2days and harry 6weeks 6days, just when i thought i was healing i went into preterm labour with my little angel sarah-michelle she lived for 10 minutes weighing 1lb 1ounce measuring 1 inches long xxxxxxx

im now 38weeks pregnant with a little girl (abi louise) and fingers crossed she will be here safe very soon!
 

[cherise]

hi am cherise am 31 and from north yorkshire
i had a coil fitted and my doctor was off sick for more than 6months so i couldnt have it taken out till she came back and wooohooo i got preg the 1st month of trying we was so happy .i had a scan and was told i was 7weeks. we looked at baby things and even put a swing crib away in the shop..we argued about names looked at clothes even bought a few bits  .at 8weeks i was so sick i couldnt even have water without been sick my doctor said if it kept up i would have to go in hospital ..most days i couldnt even get up i was that ill i started to blame the baby , said things i didnt mean things that i have to live with(i was  sick with my other 3kids but not like this)my depression got worse and i was sure i wasnt going to have a baby at the end of it , still we made plans my dad joking that i would have it new years day and my mum would have to come smelling of drink (i was due the 1 of jan)my kids we looking forward to having a brother or sister . i was near 9weeks and i felt diff i didnt feel preg i told my doctor and she said that everything would be ok.then on the 18/6 i had tummy pains and my back hurt i tryed not to think anything of it then i started spotting so i went to the hospital expecting them to so everything was ok only they didnt they said that i could be loseing the baby and to go back at 9 in the morning for a scan i cryed all that night and thought they must be wrong .when i went for the scan i knew i couldnt see a heartbeat she said how sorry she was and that it died before 9weeks .i came home they said i would just lose it and that was ok to do ..the next morning i went in for a D&C as i wouldnt go to the toilet i thought if i dont go i can keep my baby (mad i know)now am lost hurt mad confused
sorry for writing so much
cherise x

[Olliemam+1]

Cherise

I am here if you want to talk

Dawn xxx.

[cherise]

aww thank you am here if you want a chat too x

[skylarsmummy]

hi
i am tina nearly 31 and mum to three children, 2 girls and 1 boy.
last november i had a mmc at 18 weeks, my angel skylar had died at 13-14 week.
post mortum results gave us no clue as to why
as you can imagine after having three healthy pg and children this was a huge shock and a devestation to us
i am now having another lo and am 16 weeks pg, still feeling very nearvous and scared but trying to look forward and enjoy being pg
thanks for reading
skylarsmummy

[louise - Jorja's Mommy]

 

I am so sorry to have to  you to OFB

I look forward to getting to know you and your  better.

Louise x 

[kn1ghtbabe]

Hi all I'm Leigh from Nth Lincs. I had an ectopic at 17, tube was saved. When with my first hubby I had 3 miscarriages all at less than 10wks. We went on to have a boy. We split when our son was a month old. I met my current hubby and fell pregnant in the first 6 weeks. I had some bleeding and the GP came to my home and sent us to the hopsital for confirmation of a miscarriage. Two weeks later I had symptoms of pregnancy. Five positive tests later I was sent for a scan. I had been having twins and I'd actually miscarried one of them 2 weeks previously. At my next scan I received a shock, there were 2 babies, meaning I had been carrying triplets. From 24 weeks I kept going in and out of labour, the twins were finally born at 32 weeks and came home 3 weeks later. I became pregnant again and had a 4th child. Unfortunately my 4 children aren't with me (thats another story). My latest miscarriage was on April 17th this year. I am still struggling to come to terms with this. It is more difficult to cope as my mother in law took her own life in January. Also 3 members of the family were pregnant at the time and one had just given birth. I take each day as it comes. There are the days when I just sit and cry and days where I smile thinking of my angel. Of all my losses this one has hit me the hardest.

But not I have found this site and know there are others who I can talk to.

[edele]

hi my name is edele and i lost my little boy harris at 32 weeks pregnant, he was perfect in every way but yet so small he only weighd 3 pounds and 5 ounces, i just got the tests results they done on him at the hospital when he was born they confirmed what i new already that he died due to tablets i was prescribed for my heart, and thats something ill never forgive myself for. maybe if things had of been different and he had of died of natural causes it could of been easier to accept its just been a little over eight weeks now since he flew to the angels, and as each day passes it gets harder its a struggle to get out of bed each morning. i know i have a wonderful son up there looking out for me but without him here with me life does not seem worth living. my arms ache to hold him and my eyes sting just to see his smile or hear his tiny cry, my heart is broken in two, as my heart now is so weak i now may never mother another child harris was my first born my last born and my everything..