My sis as had er baby!!

[linzi xx]

Hiya all as u new my sis was due 3 days after me well she ad a beautiful little girl on the 5th april...it was touch n go wen she ad er..she was on machines and stuff and it really got to me... i jus broke down!! now she is ome and well...i am ok with her n love cin her...but il hold er for about 5 mins then i have to put er down cos i jus fink to myself this shud be me holdin mia n lookin into MY daughters eyes n smilin cos am s happy for myself and matty her dad!!! its rippin me apart inside that she has got her daughter and i hav'nt got mine!!! sometimes i wish i had'nt of made the decision i made and tht i shud of carried on maybe jus maybe mia wud have been fine maybe she wud of survived a fighter jus like er daddy!! I havnt spoke 2 any1 about how i feel cos every1 is so happy about the new arrival i dont want to put a downer on it..sorry 2 ramble on xxxx

[suzanne]

    hi honey.i know exactly how you feel as my sister and i were due 2 days apart when i was expecting caitlin.it killed me to see her go on and have her baby,not that i would have wished anything happen to her.i just wanted us to share the experience.her wee boy is 4 now and started school there in september.it broke my heart to see him in his uniform.just tell your sis how you feel.i did that and i was surprised to learn that my sister was feeling guilty and we had a really good chat.i am still a bit weird with my nephew though for some reason he loves me to bits.

[karaokej88]

 

so sorry you are feeling this way.

it must be hard, i would have been due end of march and i have 2 friends who are due the same time, and it is going to be hard for me, i know it.

but i also know i will be like you, happy for them, wouldnt want anything to harm them or their little ones, but wish so much it was us with a bundle as well as them.

life is unfair sometimes, but i am glad you are able to spend time with your sisters little one.

love jane. xxxx

[mam2jack/charlie]

can i first just say that im glad ur sis baby is ok and  for u........... i can look at this situation from both sides, when preg with skye my cousion was due 2 wks earlier and i lost my baby and hers is fantastic so i stayed away from her for he preg cos i couldnt cope with seeing her belly, im glad i said something to her cos she didnt think i was feeling the way i was and she just thought i had fell out with her..... also me, my sis and mammyto abigail we all pregnant together, due within 6 wks ov each other, the guilt i still feel for my baby being ok and abigail having her angel wings is unbearable, dont get me wrong i love charlie to bits but we had made so many plans, we had a dream ov taking the 3 kids to the park to feed the ducks, one day it will happen and i cant wait for that day, the question that keeps going through my head is why should i be blessed with 2 living children and abigail was taken away, lucy is the most loving and caring person that u could ever meet and im very proud to call her my best friend, she doesnt deserve this pain but i also know that she is the PROUDEST mammy in the whole world cos she got a princess called ABIGAIL JADE and another princess on the way, i told lucy how i felt and she said i was daft but i cant help it cos when we go to town together there is someone missing (even though she comes lol) i know it must break lucys heart coming with me and the kids but she just does it cos ov her love for the boys..... tell ur sis how ur feeling cos if you dont it might make things harder later on in life xxxxxxx


CAN U GET A BEST FRIEND AWARD???? LUCY DESERVES ONE, JUST FOR BEING HER XXXX

 

[olivias mummy]

i think you are been very brave and it must be so hard but dont think that just because your family are all so happy about the new baby that they have forgotten about you and if they are anything like my family i know they would want to be thre for me during what is obviously a very hard time with mixed emotions.

dont keep it all to yourself as you will just implode but talk to your hubby and maybe your mum but perhaps not your sister as im sure you wouldnt want to take the shine off such a pecial time for her.

love cheryl xx 

[linzi xx]

Thank you all for ur comments..my mum asks me everyday if im ok..i can c it in my mums eyes tht she is hurting for me and i fink she nos deep down tht i am puttin on a brave face..as for talk 2 her dad well we aint 2geva anymore...es in the army n currently in iraq..i speak 2 him on the computer every now n then..but wen ever i mention anything abut mia n about how im feelin e jus says i no its hard oh ok...or try not 2 fink about it!!!!! so that doesnt help..i dnt feel like i can talk 2 him about her anymore cos e doesnt seem 2 want to talk about her..maybe its jus cos es away in iraq n as got enough to worry about with jus been out there!! E's home in 2 weeks and im guna c if we can meet up n ave a talk cos maybe tht will help me as e is the only one who nos ow i am feelin in a way?? xxxxx
Oh n ive got 2 pictures of mia at the side of my bed in photo frmaes my mum kisses them everynight before she goes 2 bed lol xx