Another Question to throw into the air

[johnathons mam]

Hi Guys

This is kind of an opposite question to Lynda's but anyone who has children who were born before their angels do you find yourself pushing those children away I for 1 am admitting that I do this quite a bit not because I don't love them because I do with all my heart but I think it's because I'm afraid of losing them and as it's mothers day this weekend I find it really hard to be happy and full of joy at the gifts my children will be giving me as it will also be 14weeks to the day that I found out my angel had left me and I feel a great deal of anger and extreme sadness at this thought

hope this post made sense 

sarah x

[olivias mummy]

i dont have any children before livvy but im sure your not the only mummy who pushes her children away from fear of losing them.

 

love cheryl xx

[angelowensmammy]

hiya sarah
i have 3 children born before our angel owen, and i realy thought that i would be totally different with them when i came home, from hospital (hadnt really seen them in 4 weeks) but i just didnt feel like a mammy anymore, it was such a horrible scarey feeling. i love my littleones more than anything although they dont make it easy, but i did feel like i pushed them away a lot, there was no emotions when i hugged them at first, its been over a year since owen grew his wings and im just starting to feel like mammy again, although i do panic a hell ov alot more now when there poorly, i convince myself im gunna loose them, things will get better hunni, it just takes time, and as cheryl says your not on your own with this one hun. i hope mothers day was gentle for you hun  for you and  for your 

luv and hugs
sally
x x x