insecurities after giving birth

[mel - jakesangelmummy]

a bit of backround for you all,

craig works with a girl who has a bit of a reputation. she in nothing stunning to look at but pretty much every guy has made a move on her and suceeded. she was away travelling for a couple of months and today was her first day back. i called in to see craig after i got my tattoos done today and there was a guy chatting her up, craig said it has been happening all day. i cant stop thinking that he is doing it too 

i have always always had self confidence issues mainly because of my weight and constantly being told i am too fat. while i was pregnant i felt okish cause there was a reason for it but from pretty much the moment she was born im right back to how i was before, weighing myself everyday and barely being able to look at myself in the mirror. my self confidence issues really spiralled out of control after jakes death, i felt a failure as a women and because being over weight is such a major factor in pre eclampsia i shifted most of the blame to my body.

i am trying to rationalise my feelings, i know i cant expect a perfect body days after having a baby but im so scared that craig sees the same me that i do and he is gonna leave, if not then my insecurity and jealousy will drive him away.

i feel so messed up. i dont know if its normal or if i really am losing the plot. 

i want to enjoy my baby girl and my family but what should be very special times are being ruined by me beating myself up.

could it be post natal hormones?? is it gonna get better 

 

[cherise]

erm sends in the men in white coats for you lol
you have just had a baby and your feelings and thoughts will be all over the place enjoy your family and dont look for things that arnt there 

[olivias mummy]

Hun you are fine but you should not go on to Craig about disliking the way you look.

If you tell a fella your beautiful and that other men fancy you then he will think so too but if you go on negatively about yourself, he might think it too.

My hubby is convinced this fella fancys me because i told him he kept looking at me and he thinks one of my best male friends does too but its cos i tell him how lucky he is all the time and been a man and a bit gullible he believes it and that is what he see's. Totally not true as im too fat to have anyone fancy me and i think im ugly and lucky to have my hubby but i would never tell him that.

I think your tired and hormonal and its far to early to decide you have pnd.

love cheryl xx 

[soph25]

aw Mel hun,

don't beat yourself up. You have only just had Amy and your hormones are gonna be all over the place - your body is trying to get used to not being pg anymore and so hormones are going a bit mad but don't worry you'll get through it and be fine!

Don't worry about your weight - from photos I've seen of you you don't look as though you need to lose weight at all. It's no good me telling you that though as we all see ourselves differently to how others see us but Mel you are gorgeous and you should take Cheryl's advice and start tellig Craig how lucky he is to have you.

xxx

[davids- mummy]

mel your hormones are all over the place at the moment dont be too hard on yourself 

[MammytoAbigail]

  orrr hun! 

[Alison - Lucys Mammy]

  ah hunni, its perfectly normal to feel like this esp so soon after the birth of your little sweetie, hormones and emotions all over the place....

Take Care 

Ali
x
 

[Olliemam+1]

Mel

Sweetheart your hormones are all over the place at the moment, sending you  .

God bless


Dawn xxxxx.