I dont know how to feel

[mummytoanangel]

This might sound a bit mixed up, but i really dont know how to explain it, or who else to tell it to. Im thinkning if i write it all down it may make more sense in my head. I know its only been three weeks since i had Aiden so I expect my hormones aren't quite back to normal just yet, but I just dont feel myself. Im arguing with everyone, and snapping for what I realise after are really stupid things. When Im not angry Im crying. I love Aiden dearly, and am really enjoying being a mum, but I just dont feel happy in myself. I miss my angels so much and am thinking about them so much more recently. I cant stop imagining how old they should be now and how they would be, would they look like Aiden, would they act like him. Everytime I hug or kiss or even look at Aiden I am reminded what i've missed out on with my angels, and how i will never get to hold them close.
I dont want to forget about my angels, but feel that i have been put right back on square one again where im crying all the time because i miss them. How can I move forward without trying to forget about them.

Sorry for going on, but just needed to get it off my chest. Thanks

xx

[olivias mummy]

hun your hormones are all over the place so your feelings seem normal to me.

 

I have never experienced it myself but i know you will get loads of advice from people who have.

hope things improve for you soon.

love cheryl xx 

[Ali - Daisy's mummy]

 
What your feeling sounds perfectly normal.  I think we question with every step in life, are we leaving our angels behind.  The truth is we never will nor can we, they are with us forever, watching us, urging us to take those steps and loving us all the more for being stron enough to.  That how I feel anyway. 
Aidan is there little brother and they will be thrilled with all the love you give him too.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you've been through a rollercoaster of hormones.
Wishing you gentle days ahead 

love Ali
xxx